“And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge…” Ephesians 3:17-19
I find the darkness and despair in this place sometimes overwhelming and my heart breaks particularly for the women. As I am endeavoring in my relationship with this one young woman I stand amazed as God is at work in her life. She has boldly started a bible study in her home, however her family has threatened her recently regarding her daughter. They have told her they were going to work hard to see to it that her daughter is removed from her if she continues following Truth. There are days she is gripped with fear and times that I want her to trust the Lord more, but I know I cannot relate to this type of threat or fear. I do not know what it is like to fear losing my child. Yes, she has times where she backs off and I wonder how spiritually healthy she really is and then out of no where I see her boldly stand for Christ.
Recently she behaved quite cold and harshly towards me. Two days later, after talking on the phone to my team mate she called my crying. Apologizing for her behavior. I told her later that I still loved her and that I was not going to stop loving her no matter how she treated me because I wanted her to know how we love one another unconditionally. I continued to explain that this is not a natural love, it is the love that the Lord gives us, I in my own strength cannot love like this. Her response was this, “I believe that I have offended the Lord in the same way. He too continues to love me and forgive me. Will I ever understand this love?”
Now, that is a good question. I do not think any of us can really understand the depth of the love of the Lord. So, here’s the thing, I really desire for these women to comprehend the love of the Lord because they so much desire to be loved. I am so grateful for the opportunity to serve here and really learn so much myself about these women, this culture, and the Lord’s great love for them.